So much time lost now...

Why continue?

Alright guys, things aren't going as well as I was hoping.

First of all, I have no idea what the fuck has been hapening.

I saw someone last night. It wasn't Him though. I am not sure what it was or who it was, but it was someone.

Imagine a man a little too fat to be called fit but still a well built person. He had a mask on. It looked a lot like Rorschach's mask.

He attacked me before I could even register he was there.

I woke up about 30 minutes ago at my place and a note stapled to my arm.

"BLUE"

I feel like I am slowly getting more and more sick. It occurs more often in the night then it does in the day.

Probably not a coincidence.

I think I am starting to understand some clues.

One is that my closet is always open after something weird happens. I am going to try messing with the closet in some way to see what happens to the contents inside.

Other than that I am pretty short on clues.

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP

RUNNING

















OUT



















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HEWASAFOOLFORTRUSTINGANYONE



-aTp

now that he is out of the way, let us have some fun.
the game has been put into play, what is done is done.
want to help the poor boy?
simply join me and play with this new toy.
riddles will be said.
answer wrong and he shall end up dead.
answer right and the next round will start.
trust in me, you wouldn't want any other part.

needing to see and be seen
his eyes are a hue that is____.

-aTp

I just got a letter in the mail.

"12311HAVEFUN" is all it said.

I haven't figured any of it out yet. I think it is a code to something. I'm not sure.

There was no return address and the envelope seemed unscathed. As if it never went through the mail but ended up in my box.

Alright I am going to go see if my friends can help figure this out. Time to bring them in on this.

-AtP

I'm not sure what to think anymore.

I know shit is going down, but I can't figure out what to do about it.

It's like I am in some kind of game.

Someone had broken into my house apparently. They left some weird drawings sprawling across my desk and one taped to my monitor.

If requested I can start taking pictures of this stuff so you guys can kind of understand what I mean.

I don't know where to advance from here.

Well, let's just hope things don't get anymore weird than they already are.

I am going to catch up on some rest and then try and get a grasp on the situation.

Is one symptom of Him following you that your friends start to act really weird. Because my friend is freaking out about what is happening. Talking to me about posts that don't exist or people that aren't real. I guess I should be more believing considering where I am at but it is still just flat out peculiar.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.


-AtP

One
Two
Three
Four
Annex won't sleep anymore.
Once come night
There will be no fight.
In your hands will lie
Whether he will live or die.
Answer this question right and he shall be fine
Answer wrong and he is next in line.


What would Annex miss doing most?


I will give you some aid
It is his hobby which will not fade.
He partakes in it all the time.
Most would think of it a crime.

-aTp

I don't know where to start.

Things are starting to get fucking weird.

First off, there are drawings that are starting to show up.

Circles with X's through them. I know I have seen that symbol before but I can't place it.

There are also pages in my journal that have some odd drawings that I know I didn't do. I don't have that kind of time or artistic skill.

Another thing is the whole Thanksgiving trip. I didn't go yet everyone has been talking about how I was acting strange and that they were worried.

I don't know anymore. I'm tired.

I would be afraid if I wasn't just so damned tired and angry.

Fuck this guy. Why me? What the fuck did I do to deserve this.

Isn't this one of the stages of death? Anger?

Yeah. That's just a pleasant thought.

Fuck this, I'm out.

-AtP

how
do
you
fight
that
which
you
can
not
see?
how
can
you
fight
it
from
your
sleep?
do
you
get
it
yet?
it.
is.

OVER

-aTp

Thanksgiving!

I had quite the Thanksgiving.

First I flew down to DC and hung out with some higher ups in a random bar.

This led to them taking me into a strip-club.

Then I found $1,000,000 dollars on the ground in a briefcase.

Did I lose you yet?

I didn't do anything for Thanksgiving. Why would I? I was supposed to head down to my family's house.

I didn't.

I was supposed to have dinner with my family.

I didn't.

I was supposed to hang out with some friends who I haven't seen in a while.

I didn't.

It's not like I didn't want to go. I got into my car to leave then woke up about 15 minutes ago. My car didn't move, I was still in the drivers seat in the same clothes I had worn before I was going to leave and the food I was bringing went bad.

I just got a text from my parents.

They had fun with me this weekend at the dinner at my Brother's house.

Yeah.

I didn't go.

What?

Fuck you Slendor-ass-hat.

Fuck you.

-AtP

things are not what they seem.

no one knows the truth of the matter.

i am blind but i can see.

i am deaf but i can hear.

i am dead but i am alive.

i am afraid but i am not scared.

time to go.

there is so much to do.

where to begin

-aTp

40th Post!

Today has been quite the interesting day.

I am almost finished with House of Leaves. Quite a bad ass book so far.

I have been completely sober all of today and most of yesterday. I doubt I will partake in anything until tomorrow.

A couple of friends of mine are making a band and I got the offer to be their manager/sound equipment specialist. I feel honored, but for now we are just trying to build a studio in one of the guy's back yard. Got the pieces to fix up a shack yesterday and we are expanding it over the week.

It is impossible to get any work done with Thanksgiving coming up soon. Classes are either changing dates to turn in papers or canceling class to go a few days early. I am not really complaining about missing classes but it is still lame when I force out a bullshitted paper and then learn I had another week.

Rambleramblerambleramble.

Anyone ever seen Chowder? Radda radda radda.

I love that show.

Anyways, I don't really remember much of yesterday. I remember sleeping most of the day, finally, and I remember moving back into my old place fully, but other than that I don't remember too much. You'd think I would be used to that by now.

Wait. I just noticed something. Why does it say that I have 40 posts? I only see 37? Hmm. Well it must be a glitch or something.

Gah I need to become more focused. I need coffee. coffeecoffeecoffecoffee

I found my journal today! Big news for me because I get to use it tomorrow for class to doodle. It was the passenger seat of my car. I am glad about that.

Well, until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

1.
2.

Hescomingforyou

3.
4.

betterlockyourdoor

5.
6.

grabyourcrucifix

9.
10.

neversleepagain



pusiemitruoy

-aTp

I pretty much just relaxed all day today.

Not the best intro line, but it is true none-the-less.

Don't get too excited everyone. I know you guys would rather read some intense action but that can go to hell. I am enjoying the nice and quiet evenings filled with no adventures.

Just nice and quiet.

Today was one of those days.

Here's to tomorrow being like that too.

My friend set up his Minecraft server. Me and 3 other friends have been building a town on said server. Quite a lot of fun. It's a great way to blow some time.

I still can't find my journal. I am not sure where else to look.

Nothing else to really talk about.

My back hurts pretty back. I think I accidentally cut my back on something or got a huge sunburn. It burns over the majority of my back.

Other than that, nothing really.

I guess that is it for now then.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Sorry everyone.

Sorry for the random absences or for the days where I don't post at all. Either I am prevented from posting or I am out doing shit before I realize I should have posted to let you guys know what is going on.

For yesterday and today I am just laying low. I am not doing much, just relaxing, and trying to see if I can get a couple of normal days to rest before shit starts to hit the fan.

In the meantime, I have some tasks that I can complete like school work and trying to get my classes set up for next semester.

Yeah, I am here to stay. Nothing is going to cause me to leave.

Thank you everyone for your concern and for your support.

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP


P.S. I lost my fucking journal again. My main way of relieving stress and you would think that I would have it with me at all times.

P.P.S. Or is it P.S.S? I'm not sure. But, anyways, Aly I hope everything works out for you. Stay strong.

*Takes a deep breath*

Okay. Let me explain some things.

1. Yes I saw Him. I don't feel like really going along with the whole SAY HIS NAME thing. I am sure I will be making jokes sooner or later. It's who I am.

2. Yes, He is starting to try and make my life a fucking hell. Well, at least that is what I assume.

3. No I am not going to stand here and think OH IT IS ALL A COINCIDENCE! This is the dumb-blonde move in horror movies that get her killed first. Not before her breasts are exposed though. Classy.

4. I am not running. I. Am. Not. Running. Fuck everyone's bullshit beliefs in running. It doesn't solve anything. It just prolongs the inevitable. You can't run forever. Facing Him doesn't work yet running from Him doesn't work.

So what am I going to do, you may be asking?

Hold on baby birds. I'll feed you.

Ignore Him.

Yeah. I went there.

I am just going to ignore His lonely ass until He can't take it anymore. He will start to do the whole rigamarole. Once I am knee deep in shit, I will strike.

Crazy? Yes.

Will it work? Doubt it.

Am I going to try? Fuck yes.

I hope this makes things a little more understanding. Say what you want about my choices, but I am already set in my path.

My destiny lies ahead of me and the story is being told at my footsteps.

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP

I went to bed.

And then I woke up.

I know, I know. Everyone does this. So why is this time more important?

How about passing out in your chair for a few minutes and waking up hundreds of miles away in your hometown?

Yeah.

Have that type of sleep every day.

4 days.

Four whole fucking days.

-AtP

Now what?

I am here. Alone.

I am with people, sure, but they are no more a help to me than a knife to the throat.

I am alone and doomed.

I saw Him.

Him.

We met. Yesterday, to be exact.

I read the stories. I watched the videos.

Then we met. He doesn't seem to like me.

I threw a bag at Him. It hit Him as if it had just hit a wall, and He didn't seem to enjoy that too much.

Not at all.

Now here I am.

I have no recollection of what happened yesterday.

I am alone with my own thoughts and they are killing me.

I am pretty sure they aren't the only ones.

I need to get out but I cannot.

No escape.

Well, the end is nigh. That's for sure.

Fuck this shit. I am out. I am going to find out more about this.

Hope to post again soon. Peace.

-AtP

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Time is up.








-aTp

I need to drink less.

Every time I drink something weird happens. Who knows.

Anyways, sorry about the last post. I don't even really remember making it. I don't remember much of yesterday.

I do remember meeting someone new, but I can't remember what they looked like. It was a guy, at least I think so. He was pretty tall, from what I can gather, and kind of gangly. I know a few people like that.

I would probably recognize the guy if we met again.

Well I need to work on my story but I am neglecting it pretty badly. I am around 1700 words in instead of the 14000 I should be by the end of today. I will be lucky if I hit anywhere close to 3000.

Anyways, I guess that is it for today. Nothing new really happening in my near future.

Until next time, I'm off.

-AtP

Whoa...

Here I am. Sitting in my chair. This chair of mine has seen and heard many of things.

It has learned the lyrics to every Gorillaz song.

It has seen all of the gruesome effects of my insanity.

It has been here for me, always keeping me as comfortable as possible.

It has cried with me at the end of M*A*S*H.

And here it is, protecting from everything yet again. It is hard to believe how much of a connection me and my chair have. The love that we share. Hell, I once fucked on this chair.

I love this chair but even it cannot protect me. It can't stop anyone from hurting me. it can't be my guardian angel for the evils of this world.

I named my Car the Ishimura from Dead Space. Quite fitting if you ask me, since cars are screaming metal deathtraps.

The night is quite beautiful tonight.

Oh hey there He is. I'm going to go say hi. Just a new friend. Finally, I haven't gotten a new one since I left my home.

I'm out.

-aTp

30 post!

Woohoo! The 30th post! I just wish it wasn't on such an off note.

I learned that I had, in fact, slept at the apartment last night and then left for home. But what I was explained doesn't really make sense.

After I got in from smoking, I headed off to the bathroom and got ready for bed, as one of my friends recalled. The problem is what happened from here.

I, apparently, never left the bathroom.

They woke up the next morning and had to bust the door open because it was locked from the inside, window and door alike.

What makes it even worse?

The sink was full of blood.

I think it was from my coughing fits. I have coughed up blood before, although it isn't pretty.

I wasn't expecting THAT much blood, but I am sure that I am okay. I stopped coughing for now, but if it gets any worse I am pretty sure I am going to see a doctor.

I am not sure how to take this all in but I will figure something out. But, for now, I have a birthday party I have to attend. My friend is waiting for me to finish up.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

I....what?

I just lost a day. Seriously. I passed out last night at 12:12 a.m.

I remember this. I remember it exactly because I looked at my watch right before my computer finished loading up from a usual reboot.

I woke up 9 minutes ago. Exactly.

When did I wake up?

12:12 a.m.

I wasn't even tired and I didn't have terrors.

I didn't even dream.

I didn't even change clothes or brush my teeth or anything.

Worse than that? I woke up at my house.

I was at the apartment when I last remember.

Even worse than that?

I left my car at the apartment. Which means I must have walked.

15 miles. Of walking.

I hate walking.

Things are fucking weird. I am going to go figure some shit out and come back later with some more information.

Fuck this shit, I'm out.

-AtP

Hmmm.

I need to find some way of not being over stressed. I find myself looking at the little amount of work that I have and just stressing massively over it. I know it isn't a huge deal and I know that I will fret over it but I continue to do it anyways.

It is this disease that I gained from my father. He overly frets and stresses about everything that requires him to do any form of work.

Granted he gets the work done and so do I, but the process in getting it done? It blows. Majorly.

This causes quite a few problems when I am trying to do things from writing to simple things like making sure I don't miss an appointment.

Luckily I don't have to see the therapist as long as I have this baby and the doctor continues to read it.

Hey Mr. Greene.

Anyways, today was a little off today. I kept getting the creeps. I am also noticing more Tulpa's that usual, or mind-generated visions.

When you look at something, your first glance can contain something that isn't actually there. This has been happening to me quite a bit lately.

It isn't as fun as it may sound considering it usually startles me. I swear I am going to give myself a heart attack or something.

Well, other than that I hope to actually get some sleep tonight. Didn't sleep much last night.

The usual. I guess I should be more used to it now.

Well I guess I am off then.

Until next time, Peace.

-AtP

Pretty good day.

Nothing interesting happened as of today.

My friend came over early and smoked.

I bought a whole box of top ramen. Around 24 packets for 3 bucks. Quite the deal.

I ate 4 of them over 6 hours and had a lot of juice.

A friend who I haven't seen in months came over and we smoked.

I started my story. All is going well.

and now here I am.

My clock on my PC is incorrect. It has been for a few days. Every time I look at it the time changes to a random time, although my birth date 12:03 is coming up a lot more than anything else. That is pretty cool I guess.

Hopefully something interesting happens tomorrow. Sorry for being so boring.

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP

There is nothing to do!

Seriously! I am beyond bored here. I am trying to play Metro 2033 but I want to play Deus Ex. I play Deus Ex and I want to play Metro 2033. The entire time I have the knowledge that I have to write more for my book tonight.

Speaking of which, I got the general idea of the story ready and I have been hardcore cramming in order to make sure I can write this. I will be fully starting the book either later tonight or early tomorrow morning.

Luckily I have many class that I can just work on the story through. This makes me a lot less nervous than I could be.

Well, my friend is coming over to smoke and then I will go back to playing indecisive hockey with my games until I stop playing all of them and start writing like I should.

Go go procrastination!

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP

Slow Day.

Sorry for only posting once a day, by the way. I have been getting so bored that I have just been phasing in and out of consciousness.

I have literally done nothing productive today. Ah well. I don't mind. I had one hell of a weekend.

Nothing scary happened to me on Halloween so far except for the daunting fact of me writing 50,000 words in 30 days starting in 28 minutes.

Who am I kidding, I am excited. I am a writing nerd. I, sometimes, just sit around and write Dungeons and Dragons campaigns just to see the type of story I can make. I guess you know where the setting of my novel is going to be.

Forgotten realms if you want to be specific.

Well, I am going to go continue to count down the 27 minutes that are left.

I lied, I am just sitting here updating the time as I stare blankly at the clock.

22 minutes.

15 minutes.

7 minutes. Queue intro music.

6 minutes. I am going to end it here.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Geez.

Had another crazy night. This one, however, wasn't as good or as normal as the last time. Let me elaborate a little.

So we started off without a pregame. Meaning we left sober and hunted to become intoxicated.

There was a flash mob that was going on in the late afternoon. We all got ready but ended up sagging and going 30 minutes later than we should have. We got there when it was over and everyone had left.

After that we headed back and decided to go hit the town and get into a random block party or something like that.

This is done through one of two ways. Bring booze or bring women. We had none of the latter, so we decided to pick up a 36 pack and head to a random party.

We get halfway there and cops start searching for anyone with any booze. So we had to ditch the beer and keep going. After this major rain on our parade we decided to just go head back, get some booze, and then head back.

After that the night was pretty good, but it was just the meantime that was pretty aggravating.

There was something weird about last night though.

It feels as though I kept seeing the same costume. I mean, everyone can't be original so I was expecting to see a lot of the same costume. Hell, 4 of my friends were Ninjas. But I wasn't really expecting this one to be as popular. It was these guys, or at least I assume because they had no chest each time, dressed as mobsters.

They were in suits, slacks, red ties, and even dress shoes. Really expensive shit. But there were a few creepy things about the costume.

A major one was that the people that wore the costume seemed to wear a mask that made them faceless. The other weird part was that they were all really tall. I mean, I am sure it was just me being me but they all seemed quite a bit too high up to be an average guy. Maybe stilts or something like that.

I'm not sure what the costume is supposed to be of but it was pretty unnerving. Mostly because I know I have seen that character before. But I'm not sure where.

Agh, well my plans with this girl were canceled today so I am just off to play Deus Ex: Human Revolution.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Damn. That was crazy.

That night. Last night. Was fantastic. So many good things happened yesterday. It is hard to believe. Here is how it went down:

First I headed over to my friends house so that we could smoke. We got that on and then met with another friend who joined in. Then we headed out to get some food before my friends needed to do their homework.

We hit the town and they took me around to places that I have never been before. I ended up getting more money in change from a place that made me a burrito than what the burrito was worth.

Then we hit a comic shop and I bought a sword. A real sword. I could nerd out about it but I will pass for now.

Then we headed back to the first friends place, blew off the homework, and partied. He has 3 girl roommates that are all good looking and they decided to show us their costumes. Say what you want about me, but it was awesome.

Then I tried to leave there at around 10 and another friend ran into me and we headed to his place for a scary movie marathon. That lasted around 2 hours and then I went to leave.

Then I ran into ANOTHER party and ended up being in that for a little while longer.

Then I managed to get back to the apartment that I am always at when people started to show up there.

I finally just drove back to my place and crashed.

What a crazy day. Hopefully I will be able to party again today. I love Halloween.

Until next time, I am off. Peace.

-AtP

Have I ever mentioned how much I hate this class? Oh let me count the ways it gives me ulcers.

Luckily, this week at least, I managed to pass the test with a 77%. That is something that I can be quite proud of in this class. Let's just say that Political Science comes as naturally to me as Neural Physics. That is, none at all.

Well, at least I am passing the class. That is all I need.

I get paid today. I make money by going to college so I get $80 at about 5:30 p.m. today. 35 for gas and the rest for the week. Usually, it is blown on video games, but sometimes I get smart and save some for food.

I am not the best when it comes to saving money. I already know what I am buying with the next 3 weeks of "allowance" that I get. I do, though, make sure that I choose things that are the cheapest. I don't buy name brands, try to buy in bulk, and flash my Safeway club card like I am a leading member of Men in Black. Now I just need the suit, the glasses, the memory wiping thing, and a snarky attitude.

I didn't sleep much last night. Luckily the coughing has stopped, at least for now, but I still seem to just get small hours of sleep and constantly feel exhausted. It's as if I am sleep-entering into marathons and winning them all before coming back to wake up.

That and I think I keep misplacing things and forgetting about it just to fuck with myself. I keep losing things and finding them in the weirdest places. My keys were in the refridgerator, again, my iPod was left in the trunk of my car, which I haven't opened in weeks, and I went to sleep last night on my makeshift bed only to wake up on the couch with no memory of me moving.

I think it is all of the stress I am under lately. School can be daunting, especially when you have a lot of work due at once and a 50,000 word book to type next month. I just need to relax and calm down.

A little over an hour left of this class. May it go by fast and be canceled the next 4 weeks in a row.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

National Novel Writing Month.

There is this thing that I am doing. I am the master of description. It is a writing contest.

People sign up to do this contest where they have a month to produce a 50,000 word book (around 200 pages) starting November 1st. It has to be done by November 30th. I am excited to try and do this. It should be fun.

This is my warning in case I forget to post or something. I probably will still be posting but here is my excuse ahead of time if something happens.

In other news, nothing in particular happened today. Average day at school and just another night filled with video games. I think I might read, actually. I just got every book from the Forgotten Realms universe so I have been dying to read them.

Well, I guess that's it for this time then.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Today has been good so far.

I say as there is nothing wooden near me to knock on. Whatever. At least I am not superstitious.

Today has been decent so far. Nothing even remotely out of the norm. Just me here at the apartment chillin' with my friends, as the kids say these days.

My friend and I have an 8 game win streak on League of Legends. We won 2 games today so far. Playing Dungeon Defenders until we are ready to play again.

I have math class in around 2 hours. It is a 2 hour class and my only friend in the class is not going to be there tonight.

Forever alone.

Psh, anyways. I guess that is everything that needs updating for now. I will post again tonight to show that I am still dedicated.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Just another day.

Today was pretty slow and uninteresting.

I woke up.

I went to school.

In English we discussed random subjects.

I skipped Philosophy.

I went to my friends and hung out.

Then I came back here.

And here I am. Like I said, not a very interesting day. Oh well. Hopefully I can get a good night sleep tonight and have a normal day tomorrow too. That'd be nice.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Fuck people.

Fuck certain people man. Here's the full story.

Today was the day I was getting everything ready for my Doctor Who costume. My friend and I left at around 11 in the morning to head to Starbucks first. W got some coffee and I got a bagel and then we headed over to KMart.

At KMart we hunted around and finally found a V neck, green t-shirt. 9th Doctor was specific when he wore his green, V neck shirts. We finished up there and headed over to Supercuts. At Supercuts I told them my info and then we left to wait 20 minutes for my appointment.

We headed over to Gamestop nearby to check out the place. I am, for sure, getting Batman Arkham City. I also need to get my PS3 fixed so that I can play some games like Disgaea 3. I also checked out the Infamous 2 demo and the new Sonic the Hedgehog reboot. They were both pretty awesome.

We headed back to the Supercuts and I proceeded to get my haircut. Here is where I got pissed off. There was this rich guy, or so I assume by his apparel, standing on the other side of the window. Me being the only person getting a haircut, I saw him and noticed that he was just staring at me. No one seemed to notice him at all but he fucking stared at me for like 15 minutes. I had to take my glasses off so I couldn't see his expression or anything but I assume he was looking at his next rape victim for something like that. Fuck that shit. I know karate and carry a butterfly knife. Motherfucker can bring it.

When I went to go confront him afterwards he had left. I didn't really notice anything else around. I guess he had noticed me see him and ran for it. Who fucking knows.

Anyways, I am going for a smoke and then I'm going to play some League of Legends.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

Long day yesterday.

Yesterday was just a long day filled with too many things for me to do. I ended up falling asleep last night instead of blogging. Here is what happened.

I woke up and watched some American Football games with my friend until around 5 in the afternoon. After that we went and got some dinner and came back to the apartment.

After setting all of the electronics that we brought back up I started to smoke right outside. This is when a few things started to get really weird.

First off, there was a guy standing on the porch of another apartment pretty far off in the distance that didn't move for a little over 30 minutes. I mean at all. It was funny to just see how long he could stand there. I know it wasn't some sort of ornament because at one point I glanced away and then looked back to see that he was gone and that the door behind him was open.

The next thing that happened was the cops showed up to my neighbors while I was mid-smoke. I ran back inside and shut all of the doors and windows as quietly as I could. Apparently the guys next door got called for a noise violation and then one guy got into trouble for parole violation or something to that effect. All the while I was trying to make no noise and just relax in the living room.

After about an hour the police left and I was too exhausted to do anything so I just slept. The sleep was short lived due to my usual allergy/coughing fits. I eventually passed out around 3 in the morning but the terrors woke me up before 4.

I am getting sick and tired of this no sleep shit. It is annoying and if being awake was a physical being I would whoop the shit out of it so I can get some damned rest.

Well I am going to go get ready for school.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

What a night.

I need to drink more often. Last night ended up being quite a night to remember. Except...well I only remember most of it. At least I think it is most. Anyways, let me break it down.

First me and my friend played League of Legends and Dungeon Defenders to loud music while drinking the lighter drinks to wash down our dinner of sandwiches and candy bars. This lasted about 2 hours.

Then we took out 4 shot glasses each and had a race to see who could drink them the fastest. The final shot glass was filled with Tequila while the rest was filled with Vodka. However, the final shot glass was as big as two. I won.

After that the two of us had some pretty deep and personal philosophical conversations. It ended with me talking to quite a few people on Facebook.

Then, I got a girlfriend...On her birthday.

Not a single regret. This should be the start of a good road in life.

I ended up falling asleep for a few hours but I don't feel like I did. Must be the hardcore running around or something. Who knows.

So I am probably going to go as the 9th Doctor from Doctor Who for Halloween. It should work if I can find someone with a leather jacket.

Well football is on and I am hoping that I can win my Fantasy Football league. I just started getting into it this year with a friend and it is quite fun. I am enjoying myself with it. So I'm off.

Until next time, Peace.

-AtP

League of legends is a lot of fun to play while drinking. Sitting here with an Arnold Palmer (non-virgin) and a 3 Musketeers waiting to play some LoL with a friend who is over here drinking with me. I am hoping that if I drink enough I can just pass out and get a full nights sleep. Hey, it couldn't hurt to try.

And so here I am. Today was a decent day. Aside from someone chewing through a Wii classic controller, a person getting lost around town, and 2 others being on shrooms all day near me, it wasn't too bad at all.

I got quite a bit done on Dungeon Defenders and I have a 10 win IP boost on LoL so that I can get Graves. I am excited to be able to destroy everything as him. Until then, I am going to mess around on Morgana.

Other than that, there isn't anything really new. I have been doodling a lot more than usual and I have been noticing some older drawings that are things that I don't really recognize. I wouldn't really care except they are things that I have, not only, never seen but also they are drawn better than my handless/feetless stick figures. I guess when I am not sober I draw much better and much more odd.

Well this 3 Musketeers bar is calling to me.

Until next time, Peace.

-AtP

Mario Style

So here I am playing dungeon defenders with a bunch of guys on shrooms in the same room. Me and a few other friends are here making sure everything goes well, so I am not partaking. I am not sure if I ever would. I am positive all that would happen is spiders. Spiders everywhere.

Thus, here I am blogging again. Didn't sleep much last night. Fell asleep for about 2 hours and had the terrors again. Woke up in sweats and coughing. Damn fucking allergies.

And so life goes on. I'm not sure what else there is to talk about. Level 21 on DD. Squire. I was a monk but then I switched to help my friends.

I guess I am off. I am going to go smoke and then doodle. Tired of electronics for now.

Until next time, Peace.

-AtP

Whoa...

I only posted once so far today and it was quite a few hours ago. That is unusual for me I guess. I want to give you guys as much information in a day as I can while trying to not overbear you with my randomly useless knowledge.

So today was mostly uneventful. I made up some excuse to leave class early because I had already read ahead. I headed off to the guys apartment to pick them up to bring them out to lunch. I owed one for taking me out last time so I figured I would feed both the guys.

We headed over to this nice little burger shack and had lunch. We mostly cussed a lot in a public place and talked about the Game of Thrones book.

We headed back and BS'ed around until another friend came over so that we could play some Dungeons and Dragons. Yeah, I know.

We started off by playing Munchkin, a very comical and fun card game that is D&D based. We finished off that game and slowly delved into D&D.

From then on we spent around 5 hours playing. Good times, good times.

Well, it is time for me to head off to my friends to help them play Dungeon Defenders.

Until next time, Peace.

-AtP

Well then.

Well, at this moment, I am sitting in my political science class trying to recuperate from a severe case of midterms. Having messed up my papers in the beginning of this class, my grade isn't perfect already. I only hope I studied enough.

I slept last night through the whole night. I left out any description about how it was because it wasn't good or bad. My head hit the pillow, I went out like a light, and I woke up as instantly as I fell asleep. It was a decent sleep, but I am still tired.

I don't even think that tired is the correct word. I feel more exhausted than anything else. And so is life.

There is a quote that is one of my personal favorites. "Life sucks. And then you die." True. Oh, so true.

Jumping back to me being in political science (I do this a lot when I just ramble on), this class is a doozy. The deranged teacher decided that the normal curriculum wasn't good enough so she made her own version of each chapter. Now I know almost nothing of politics so I don't even know the difference between a democrat and a republican. The instructor has proclaimed herself "The Democrat" and forces everything that she believes upon us. Now, normally, I wouldn't really care I would ignore it if it was annoying or listen in if I became interested. But when it is an instructor I would like a much less biased class so that I can understand both sides.

To make matters worse, the girl who friend-zoned me sits next to me. Not that it is awkward but it sometimes hurts the soul.

How does that old song go? "I want you to want me." Yeah, that. It always plays in the background of my head when I talk to her.

Well class is continuing again here soon so I am off to go doodle some more.

Until next time. Peace.

-AtP

Update from earlier.

So, according to my friends, I left of my own accord last night. Although, there was a few things wrong with how I acted. Aside from me not remembering it, these other reasons just add to how weird this all is. This is how it went down according to them.

I woke up suddenly and started to stomp around grabbing some things to get ready to leave like my keys and my wallet. One of my friends stood in my way to ask what was up. I ended up pushing him out of my way overly rough, knocking some stuff on a table off.

After that I guess I drove myself home and fixed myself up before going to bed. There are some other things weird here.

I took my keys and my wallet but none of the other stuff I take with me to my house like my iPod to listen to music or my phone, which I always have on me.

I looked at my car after hearing this and noticed that I had roughly 22 miles in-between last night and today. But It is only 5 miles to my friends house. That means that I drove around for way longer than needed.

Anyways, I am not sure what to think of this but I will probably lay down off of smoking tonight, sleep at the guys apartment, and try to get through the night without any more problems. I am off to go watch some more Doctor Who.

Until next time. Peace.

-AtP

What?

Okay, I need to stop smoking. Either it is causing me to be so far gone that I keep forgetting what I am doing or it is causing me to sleep...drive? Here's the story.

I didn't have a very good yesterday. Among many things, it just wasn't a very good day. Shit happens. I'm over it. So I am ending my day by smoking at my friends' apartment before I headed off to bed. They have 3 people in a 2 bedroom apartment. One of the guys is never there so I always crash in his room on the floor. We usually just pass out while watching Venture Brothers.

Well I was smoking out on the deck, although it is on the ground floor so it is more like a fenced off porch, when I started to get really, really tired. It was to the point that I felt really sick. So I stumbled my way to the makeshift blankets that I deem a bed and crashed.

Now this is usual for me, aside from the sick part. I mean, I get allergies so that would make sense for me to get sick and I was smoking so I was also feeling a little relaxed to begin with. Here's where everything gets weird.

I woke up at my house.

I must have drove, since my car is here, and I seemed to have showered and changed before going to bed. Now this has happened before, although it was because this girl I liked took me home when I got hammered one night, but it wasn't really the same this time. I was shaved, hair trimmed, and even my fucking glasses were clean. I mean spotless.

I, personally, blame stress mixed with a bad day and then topped off with me smoking and being tired. A whole combination of fuck to create the perfect storm of bad.

I don't know why I am fretting over this. I'll head back over to the apartment later tonight and ask if one of the guys helped me home. I just wish I stopped feeling so sick.

I always get sick near Halloween. It hasn't failed since I was 10. And when I get sick then it is the works. Coughing, sneezing, sweats, hard to breathe, and sometimes vomiting. The coughing has always been the most dreaded part though. It gets so bad that I can't sleep sometimes and have to use enough pillows to where I am practically sitting up so my through stops tickling.

Anyways, on a lighter note, I am going to be getting Dungeon Defenders tomorrow. It will help me stop being left out of the group of friends that I know who are playing it. They need a Monk, and me being the guy who loves monks in any form of game play I am more than up to the challenge.

Well, at least I slept great last night. I feel rejuvenated and filled with energy.

And with that I am off. Until next time. Peace

-AtP

Fuck it.

Ugh, I finally got home after my Philosophy midterms today. Not fun. Not fun at all. Luckily, my good friend treated me to dinner tonight at this burger shack nearby. I swear that small places have much better food than anything mainstream. Fuck McDonald's.

Well I had English and Philosophy again today. English was simple as always. Watch a video, respond to it on paper, then discussion. After that I head to the campus lobby for 3 hours until my next class. It gives me study time, reading time, and time for me to watch Heroes on Netflix. I love that show. I am only a few episodes from the end of Season 4 too. I want to know what happens.

Today's "study" session wasn't too good though. This girl I really like but friend-zoned was going to stop by and show me Pokemon Green but she had to cancel. That's what I get for getting excited.

I have always had relationship problems. My first relationship, and probably my favorite, was a girl I met in 8th grade during a dance class. It was a fun and flimsy relationship, but my favorite non-the-less. First loves are always hard to lose. She ended up cheating on me. Shit happens.

My second relationship ended after about 2 weeks. Turns out we didn't bode well with each other in the relationship sense.

My third relationship lasted 10 months. She was probably the girl I have loved the most in my life. She ended up breaking up with me. We are still friends and hang out occasionally but we couldn't be much father apart.

My fourth relationship lasted about 2 days. However, with this girl, I grew very close to in a friend manner. I still talk to her and hang out with her whenever I can. She will probably be reading this and then laughing at me.

My fifth relationship lasted about 4 months and has been on/off ever since. It is a distant thing going, seeing as how she lives where I used to before I moved 2 hours away to go to college. She and I still trade the lovey dovey stuff over texts but it still feels half-assed and lacking in much real meaning.

See. Not the best guy when it comes to relationships. I mean, I lost my virginity in a fucking park. I am not your average guy when it comes to women. No telling, really.'

Well, after this break period from classes I headed off with my friend to our philosophy class. It was time for the full blown midterm. I think I got a solid B on the test but I am not too positive about it. I needed to study more.

Well, I am probably going to go head over to another friend's house to smoke and then head home to crash. Long day today. I think I deserve the off time.

Until next time, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

And there you go.

Well, I passed out around 3 a.m. this morning and found myself sleeping all the way until 10. Not one nightmare, or any dream at all for that fact, but I think my body is too tired to sleep. I woke up more exhausted then before I went to sleep. Man, this is getting old.

Anyways, today is another full day of classes. Luckily I have some time to blow on the new Graves update for LoL. Should be pretty awesome. Skarner finally got buffed. Time to try him out.

I am glad that I found my sketchbook yesterday. I am going to need it throughout today. Heh, forget classes. It's doodle time. Psh, if I could, I would live in Chalkzone and draw random things all day. I just suck at art so it isn't very appeasing to the eyes of others. Practice makes perfect right?

Well this won't be a long post, seeing as how the update is done. Time to play some Skarner.

Sorry to those who don't play WoW or LoL. I talk about them a lot. You might want to check them out.

Alright, I'm off. Peace.

-AtP

SSDD

Anyone else love that movie? It's all about Duddits.

Anywho, today has been one of those days. I'll start from the top.


First off, math class sucked much harder than usual. I got yelled at for trying to read a book during class. Who knew trying to fit an educational experience into your free time when you have finished more than asked from a certain class was unacceptable. And, of course, this was hilarious to my friend who also has the class with me.

I got back from class to head over to another friends house to smoke with him and play some Gears of War 3. He canceled.

So I smoked by myself and came in to play WoW. I was suddenly stricken with boredom while trying to do some battlegrounds. This lead to me trying to play some LoL. This ended even worse, as I tromped around and ended 1/9/1. Not one of my best moments.

And here I am. I would go to sleep but I am not sure I am ready to try again. Probably going to end up pulling an all-nighter and trying to get some grinding to do. Who knows, maybe I will end up passing out later tonight and not regretting it.

That's me. The indecisive nerd/stoner. MLIA

At least I can drown out all of these stupid thoughts with my Gorillaz Pandora station. Best investment I have ever made was a year of Pandora Radio. I almost never turn it off.

Alright that is enough rambling for this post. I'm off. Peace.

P.S. I found my old sketchpad. I lost it months ago. It is actually my school workbook that I do some doodles in while I am in class. I missed 3 papers because I lost this stupid thing.

-AtP

*Sigh*

I leave for my math class in 30 minutes. Normally, I wouldn't care. This class, however, is more lame than any class. The main reasons are:

1. The teacher. Oh my god, the teacher. He is roughly 80 years old, has played every form of American Football, and has seemed to have done everything and anything that is even remotely "manly".

2. It is a 2 hour class that goes from 6:30 p.m. until 8:20 p.m.

3. I have done this math already around 4 years ago but I bombed the assessment test so I am stuck in this class.

4. I am 2 chapters ahead of the class so I sit in the class doing nothing for the whole 2 hours.

I could go on and on about more things that make that class horrifying to me but I would rather not delve into it at this point.

On another note, I am starting to think I smoke too much. I am starting to have the most random memory losses. Last night, for instance. I was sitting here about to blog one more time before I went to sleep when everything goes into a haze. The next thing I can remember is that I wake up this morning with all of my smoking gear nearby. I am pretty sure I just smoked myself to sleep, but that is the 2nd time it has happened to me this week. I am pretty sure it is from the lack of sleep I am getting.

Damn, I really am a mess. Well, whatever. 21 minutes until I leave. I guess it is time for me to get ready.

I'm off. Peace.


-AtP

What fucking time is it? 3:23 p.m. on a Tuesday? What is this shit? I have been awake since 5 and it is already 3 in the afternoon?

I only got 2 hours of sleep last night. Stupid nightmares again. Some days I dream of nothing, and those are the cherished days. I went the last 3 nights only sleeping 2 hours or so due to night terrors. Gah, nothing helps me sleep.

I am one of those guys who has always wanted to have the power to never sleep. It is overrated, boring, a waste of time, and completely unproductive. There is no reason for me to want to lay in one place for 8 hours without doing anything.

The idea of sleep is just silly.

Anyways, I had one hell of a day. It went something like this:

Woke up.
Cleaned myself up.
Drove to my friends house to smoke.
Drove back.
World of Warcraft and League of Legends for around 7 hours.
Blogging.

Yeah, very productive.

On a good note, I don't hate blogging as much. It feels good to not keep all of this bottled up.

That's enough rambling for now. I'm off.

-AtP

Fuck WoW.

Fuck World of Warcraft, I am playing Elements. Why? Because I am easily attatched to random flash games. It is a weakness to me.

Sitting here in my friends apartment as we blurt random Venture Brothers quotes as I stare at my screen, monotonously typing this blog.

Had a weird day today. I was just chilling at the school lobby when I suddenly started to get a major headache. There was this loud screeching sound that seemed to be some kids phone or something. I'm not sure. After a while it started to make me feel sick. I went outside and sat down on the grass. The headache died away but I feel like I am getting allergies too, so it was just replaced with a huge amount of coughing and the occasional sneezing.

I used to not get allergies but since around 2 years ago I started to get them every year, most often the closer to Halloween it gets.

I'm not one to complain, but trust me. It fucking sucks.

Anyways, Going to probably go smoke and then play some more Elements as I am drowned by the soundtrack of the original Zelda game as my friend plays it. I should get a sponsor from Elements.

Here is the link for the game: http://elementsthegame.com/

I am off for now. Peace.


-AtP

Well, first class of the day done, only one more to go. I am in-between classes at the moment, waiting to go from English to Philosophy. Midterms today, bleck.

Got a phone call today in the middle of class. A number I didn't know. Went outside to accept the call and it went straight to voice mail as I picked it up. I listened to the voice mail but it was only static for 15 seconds or so. Interesting. Not a number I know of and I don't really have the courage to call back. It seems like a pocket call so I should probably just forget about it. Yet I keep thinking about it.

I guess this is why I am the one with a therapist and you are the one reading this silly blog. Bah, there I go rambling again. Although, what else is this for?

I keep forgetting to do things lately. It's really getting to me. Yesterday I forgot where I had put my keys until I found them in the refrigerator. Today I forgot to go by my place to get my bag yet it was in the car the whole time. Lost my sketchbook about a month ago. Still don't know where it is. My life is average I guess. Whatever.

Only 4 more hours until I can grind out my honor tonight to get my season 10 on WoW. That sentence was gibberish to some.

Hope I am not blogging to much. Well, if someone doesn't like it then they don't have to read it.

I don't doubt that I would post more today, so until then, I'm off.


-AtP

Monday, October 17th, 2011

Why? Why am I blogging? What am I doing here? These are the questions that the sane side of me wants answered. I never really figured myself to be the "blogging" type. I mean, not that a guy like myself that comes from the Californian suburb would love to sit inside and at the computer instead of being out surfing and being athletic like everyone thinks or anything.

Oh. Wait. Yes I am.

So, why then, am I doing this? Why am I taking time from my busy schedule to blog?

I think it is because I am being forced into it. There is a part of me that feels like I should start describing my days to people. Maybe someone would find it interesting. Hell maybe even someone could relate.

Of course, it could also be a recommendation from my therapist that meant that I could miss the next 3 trips if I kept this blog updated with my daily routines and events. Huh. It could be either of these.

Anyways, glad to meet you all...sort of anyway. I guess I will just start by describing myself fully.

Name: Annex (let's stick with that for now)
Age: 18
Sex: Male
Location: California
Favorite Color: Green
Height: 5'11"
Weight: 190
Phobias: Spiders, being near fast moving vehicles, guys in suits.
Hobbies: Writing, reading, video games, fantasy stuff in general.

That's about everything you need to know about me. I will probably be posting often since queue time on World of Warcraft takes forever. Thanks for reading. It helps me screw the system. :]

-AtP